This is who I was.
This is who I was striving to be.
This is who I am.
If I continue down this path this is who I will be come.
If I make these changes can I still be who I wanted to be?
I'm really reflecting (this past week) on who I have become. Sometimes it feels as if the person I am right now was forced on me, though, I know that I have [some] control over it.
I see a lot of things in my self that I DO NOT like... Things I never thought I would be. And yet, there are things about me that I never thought I could be, nor did I realize these areas that I was/am lacking in.
There's a lot of dancing around with my words I realize it. I don't really want to say all that I'm thinking because "if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything".
All that being said.
Who am I becoming?
Bitter?
Angry?
Self centered?
Stuck in my ways?
Scared?
Unsatisfiable?
Sad?
I don't want those to be titles that I relate with.
This is a daily struggle for me.
I want to be who I was... I want to find that person again. Even in the midst of navigating the ocean of grief...I believe I can find her or at least parts of her.
