Socially awkward

Today I realized I now fit into the socially awkward group (if I didn't already before). I found myself in a situation meeting/talking to new people and I was terrified questions were going to lead to the "do you have children?" Category.. I've read that most people in my situation just take it as it comes and decide in the moment how they will answer. I almost started crying just THINKING about answering EITHER way. Lucky for me it didn't come up but I worry that in the process I came across as rude/stuck up/snobby/uninterested/ etc... 

I don't want to purposefully not claim my baby but I don't want to cry (or come across cold and uninterested) in front of strangers all the time either. What a strange, new place in life for me. 

On the other hand, my baby brother has only been told Embers name a handful of times, but he now has it memorized and recognizes her face in pictures (or my lock screen, that he so often kisses). I love that he loves her so.