Praying

I'm not good at praying. I'm being honest here. I feel like, since Ember died, what's the point. God will accomplish His will, life will happen, and my prayers don't mean much... This is me being honest. 

But then, you hear horrible things happening all over the world... And (in another honest moment) I often try to put it out of my mind... Persecution terrifies me, it does. But, it's all over. I can't ignore it... What can I do? Pray? 

The Bible tells me to. But sometimes I ask, how? Or...why? 

I'm trying to get better at it, I am. My heart breaks for all these people... My heart is anxious for what the future could hold here, or in my personal life. 

There is no conclusion to my post today because there is no conclusion in my thoughts...