Firsts

This is the start of firsts for us. Firsts that we had anticipated but that are drastically different than we had planned. We had our first Thanksgiving without our baby and though we both thought about her God graciously gave us sweet times with my family. I so wished she could have been with us, I'm positive my baby brother would love her so (I know he does actually. Every time he gets ahold of my phone and sees her picture he kisses it and says baby). I think about how they would interact often. 

We went to a renaissance festival today and for some reason felt compelled to buy her some things (even though she doesn't care and it's for our sake not hers). 

(A wooden rose)

Ironically just recently I had been thinking how I wanted a lasting rose (inspired by a friends engagement rose) and saw this today and thought it would work perfectly.

Then later we came across an artist making these pictures and my mom thought it'd be cool to have one made for Ember 

It was fascinating to watch the artist work, he made it look so easy! The cool thing is; all he knew was the name and that the name was the name of my daughter (I didn't say anything about her being still born). he just naturally made it so rainbow-y. I thought it was awesome how the 'E' is made up of  3 dolphins (a mama a daddy and a baby). There are also roses and a butterfly. He made it perfect without knowing. 

God is awesome.