Candid

*funny story* for the longest time I thought candid meant something along the lines of funny because of Candid Camera and I always thought that show was hilarious so I related the two--ha!

I'm dealing with anger, in a lot of ways. I need prayer because sometimes i don't know how to handle it, or process it. I have never been a very angry person really and I know anger goes with grief, I'm trying to handle it Biblically but I don't particularly like this underlying feeling...

I just miss the innocence of life before all this. Everything now feel dangerous, everything feels scary. I tend to see the bad more than the good, the what might be's not the what most likely will be's. 

I've also never been an optimist which has dropped from a realist to probably more of a pessimist. 

I then struggle with "Vanessa, your life has not even been THAT hard at all toughen up" to "Vanessa, process and handle these emotions they are what you're feeling." 

I appreciate the prayers of my praying friends, I know they've helped me in the past and trust they will help me now. I also appreciate bible verses you feel led to share with me. 

Xo