Back to reality

We had dinner in our home for the first time tonight! I know, I know, some of you are thinking "wow, you've been there forever" but the reality is... Things take time when you're remodeling/moving/grieving all at once. I was excited, to cook dinner for Husband and I. Spaghetti with zucchini and summer squash-yum! 

Afterwards though, I got to thinking... This is our new reality. In a new home, making new memories without our baby. 

We were so pleasantly surprised to discover I was pregnant with Ember so quickly after we got married. We started thinking about how "wow, we're gonna spend our 1 year anniversary opening our wedding memory box with a baby!" Now as our anniversary approaches I realize that "plan" we made is different now too. I just can't get over how many plans/dreams changed with that positive pregnancy test and how drastically they were shattered with the words "no heart beat". Life is crazy, unpredictable, and so out of my control. 

Hoping to turn our day back into a good, exciting day watching a movie and eating Rocky Road ice cream-yum!

 But first I had to get some thoughts out and now I have to go look through some of her things to remember her.