What am I finding?

I've come to the realization that I'm not trying to find beauty in the ashes. When I named this blog that was my desire, to find beauty in these ashes. And yet, I realize, I'm negative. I'm stuck in a pity party rut... Guess what? I don't really want to/feel like I have strength to climb out of it either. 

But I'm gonna try.

I want to start by spending more time with my husband. I miss him all day while he's at work then he gets home and we just watch a movie or get on Facebook (or writing this blog lol!) so as soon as this is done I'm gonna suggest a board game (or maybe I'll have him read my blog and that'll be my way of suggesting it).

Then I want to find something beautiful in my life each day... Maybe I'll blog about it. Maybe it'll be a secret. But either way I want to try. 

Wish me luck (even though I don't believe in luck).