Fear of Fear

I'm realizing the constant state of fearing fear I'm living in. For example "how scary would it be if someone broke into our house while I'm sleeping?" Or "What if that semi truck crashes into us, the fear that I would have for the few seconds would be crippling!".

Anyway I'm always coming up with these fearful scenarios, I think because "how horrible would it be to hear the words 'no heartbeat'" recently happened in my life... 

It doesn't matter how much I bring to my mind the scripture on fear and not worrying  that I've memorized, that fear is still there. Haunting even my dreams, making my nights restless and my sleep light. The lack of sleep causes me to be even more sad, irritable, and unmotivated than I would be in this circumstance.

This is my struggle today. 

The beauty I find in today is the love and endurance people have, past their breaking point. The ability to keep pouring love out.