Day 10-11

Day 10 was Belief

I believe in Jesus. I believe in The Holy Bible. I believe in heaven and hell. I believe that Ember is in heaven with Jesus. 

One day I will go be with Jesus and Ember. I know that Jesus made it possible for a sinner like me to spend eternity there (in heaven) and for that I am eternally thankful. 

Day 11-emotional triggers 

Oddly enough I had one tonight... 

Husband took me out to dinner and I thought about how four months ago I was looking forward thinking "soon it will never be just "us" it will be us and baby" thinking date nights would be different, alone time would be scarce. 

I felt guilty tonight, for selfishly thinking about that then, but how would I have known... 

Other triggers are babies her "should be" age, baby things in general, pregnant bellies... I have a lot of triggers sometimes they pull sometimes they're fine it's hard to know when they'll go off.