7. You Now: Where are you in your grief right now? How are you feeling? How far have you come? Are you wrestling with anything? Is your heart heavier or lighter now?
Everyday is different, but I do feel as if I've come a long way. Though it's only been 4 months I feel as if it's been an eternity.
If I'm going to be honest (which I told you I would) I wrestle with body image. I know most women do, but this is a new different kind than before.
How do I answer the last question? That's so complicated. My heart is heavy for my husband and I as we're the ones left here to deal with sadness and grief. My heart is lighter that my baby girl's in a place with no pain or sadness. Sometimes I'm jealous that Ember never had to hear about sad/mean things in this life. Sometimes I'm sad that she'll never experience things here though such as: falling in love, sand on her toes or the taste of chocolate. But me being human can't fully grasp the pleasures of Heaven and all she's experiencing there.
So how do I answer the last question? I don't know.
A picture to show where I am in my grief now? 
Slowly trudging along (upside down sometimes apparently) determined to get somewhere even though it takes time. Baby steps (or what ever it is that snails do besides step)
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