Day 9- song

When I was pregnant with Ember "Just Give Me A Reason" by Pink featuring Nate Ruess was SUPER over played but I liked it just the same... I kind of thought of it as our song just cause I (and therefore we [Ember and I]) would jam out to it in the car after dropping Husband off at work. 

After Ember died I started kind of making up my own meaning and interpretation to the song. 

I wanted a reason as to why this pain was happening even if it was just a glimpse of Gods purpose. 

My body and my heart weren't broken just bent and in the future maybe I could learn to love another pregnancy and baby again. It's in the stars (I take this to mean God in heaven has it under control and written in his plan). It's been written on the scars in my heart... Ember will always be on my heart but some day I hope to love again. Not in place of, just again. 

I realize this is quite a stretch to such an obvious song about a completely different situation but for some reason this is what comes to me... Odd but true.